Wow, it's been a long time.

School has started of course. I'm so bored with this liberal arts stuff but I know I can't slack off and really get myself used to this self discipline stuff.

Next year I'm planning on attending the University of Iowa!! I'm so excited to take that next step. I was always really scared but now I know I'm ready. I'll be majoring in social work and minoring in psychology. I've always been a huge Hawkeye fan so of course it's natural for me to go there. :)

So Iowa vs. Iowa State today? Gooooo Hawkeyes!!! 17-5. That's always such a huge game since it's in-state. I get really into it, lol.

I also got a new job. Best Buy was horrid. I'll be working at Dicks Sporting Goods where I start Monday.

Just a little update.

xx Annie

It's been forever since I've logged into LJ. Wow. Long time no see everyone.

My personal life has been a little messy for a while and I've been busy with Best Buy and all that good stuff that I've restricted myself to Facebook and kind of forgot about this stuff. Oops.

Nothing too exciting has happened lately.

I have a goal for school though. I have this last year at Scott Community College where I will graduate with an Associates Degree in Liberal Arts. After that it's off to the University of Iowa! I'm planning on going into psychology. I'm not exactly sure of the major yet but I'm looking into being either a social worker or some sort of counsler.

Now it's off to bed with me.

xx Annie

Why hello everyone! So it's been like 4 weeks since I last updated but I've been rather busy and by that I mean pretty lazy too. Ha.

For a while I was working 2 jobs but I went ahead and quit the theater about 2 weeks ago. Did I tell you guys I got a job at Best Buy? It's pretty fun there. I'm a media specialist. Sounds important, eh? Ha, not really. I'm getting way more hours though and it's something new to me so it's pretty exciting.

I'm done with school now for the year which is totally cool. Yay summer! :D

So I've got this new obsession. Twilight anyone? It's pretty fucking awesome.

Right now I'm super tired so that's all I'm gonna say.

xx Annie

WHY ARE BOYS SO CONFUSING?!

Ugh! So Mitch told me he misses me. I've stayed the night at his house 3 times since Wed. Now it's exactly like we are dating again... but are we? I don't know how to ask and am really scared to. Wtf do I do?! Ha ha. Omg.

I freaking hate Facebook Chat!! Why? It keeps me up all night! Lol, it's 2 am and I have to be up early. Ugh, why?! I just talked to my friend Kyle for 3 hours... about pandas!! Lmao... I dunno anymore.

I'm so excited for the 16th! I planned a bonfire/movie shin dig at my house that night. So far 4 people are going. Lol, it's a start! We are gonna eat pizza, make s'mores, play hide and go seek, and watch Old School. :D

And there was no point to this entry, ha ha.

( Here's a meme! )

G'night! :)

xx Annie

Here are some pics and stuff. Not too exciting but eh.

We went to Azteca to eat and then got out drank on at the Clarion Hotel and it was pretty much amazing.

( Big pictures! )

Wow! I don't think I ever get on here anymore!

I've been busy with this stupid art appreciation paper and presentation that is finally all finished!! I only have 2 1/2 weeks left of school which is so exciting. I'm so ready to be done for the year.

Did I tell everyone I got a new car? It's a silver 2002 Pontiac Sunfire. It's complete with a sunroof and cd player! :)

I'm so itchy and miserable from tanning. Ugh. My chest itches like hell and my butt and back hurt.

I turn 20 on Friday!! That is so wierd sounding, lol. I'm no longer going to be a teenager. I'm throwing a party too. I've gotten a bunch of people together to go to Azteca and then I got a hotel room and we are going to get our drank on. I'm excited.

I started applying for some new jobs last night. I want to have a new one by the summer time. I can't deal with the theater. I kind of want a waitressing job but I haven't checked into that yet. I've applied at Best Buy, Blockbusters, Von Maur, and Walmart. I've got a list of a few other places I'm going to try also. Wish me luck! :)

xx Annie

One word, and one word only. No hyphenated cheats. One. WORD. ONLY.

You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.

Not as easy as you might think. Remember: one word answers.

1. Where is your mobile phone? bedstand
2. Your significant other? none :(
3. Your hair? brown
4. Your mother? amazing
5. Your father? cool
6. Your favorite thing? laughter
7. Your dream last night? none
8. Your favorite drink? tea
9. Your dream/goal? motherhood
10. The room you're in? bedroom
11. Your ex? amazing
12. Your fear? rejection
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? married
14. Where were you last night? walmart
15. What you're not? happy
16. Muffins? blueberry
17. One of your wishlist items? love
18. Where you grew up? iowa
19. The last thing you did? texted
20. What are you wearing? p.j.'s
21. Your TV? off
22. Your pets? cute
23. Your computer? macbook
24. Your life? confusing
25. Your mood? lonely
26. Missing someone? yes
27. Your car? none
28. Something you're not wearing? necklace
29. Favorite store? wet seal
30. Your summer? nice
31. Like someone? yes
32. Your favorite color? green
33. When is the last time you laughed? earlier
34. Last time you cried? today

I can definitely say I hate myself right now.

I haven't sept in 2 days and all day today I've just been crying uncontrollably and I can't stop. I've never felt like this before. I'm an emotional wreck.

I want to hate him for some reason but I can't. I want him back so bad but I don't even know what to do.

As of right now, me and Mitch are not together. I am so hurt.

For the past 2 weeks, he's been pretty distant with me. Today I find out that he's bored with the relationship and with me. He didn't tell me he was bored with me but I can just tell and it's something that I need to work on. I'm a shy person and a little bit introverted and he's the completely opposite. Basically, from my last 3 boyfriends, I've learned that I need to be more open, outgoing, and assertive. I'm not too much of any of those. I keep too many things to myself when they need to be said and I need to learn to make up my mind and care more. Why? I'm so worried about what someone is going to think of me even though I love them and have been with them for 6 months. My biggest fear is rejection and the entire time I have worried too much about upsetting him, or wanting to do something he doesn't, and just plain being myself. Why? Rejection. Why did I set myself up for this for a third time?

Now I just got a text from him asking how I was holding up and I just started balling. I'm so glad he cares to ask me that but it makes me wish everything was like it used to be.

Now my mind is set on getting him back. He told me it might not be over forever and to maybe work on that stuff. He said perhaps that this is just a break. I'm not sure how long he's talking about though. He still wants to be good friends so he still wants to hang out. Do you guys think inviting him to go bowling with some of my friends on Friday would be too soon? Should I kind of just let this wait for a bit? I'm just afraid that if I wait he'll be gone forever and I don't want this to happen.

I can't get over all of this.

:(

xx Annie

I didn't get a chance to post today!

Happy zombie Jesus day or Easter... or whatever!! I'm a little late but I wasn't around too much. :P

I hung out with Mitch for once! I was with him for like an hour before I had to go to my aunts and we ended up at the driving range, lol. It was actually pretty pointless and boring since I don't golf and just kind of stood there looking stupid, lol. That's not too hard for me. ;)

I actually lied at my aunts because I was really sick of being there and said I was going home but changed my mind and went to his house. How bad is that? Yep... pretty bad, lmao. We watched.... or I wanted to watch "Smokin Aces." I never saw it and got my ass chewed out forever because of it. He wouldn't let me watch though! Ha ha, apparently there were other things on his mind. Typical boy. :)

Tomorrow I'm seeing a movie with Jordo, Carly, and maybe Emily. Yay!

Then it's back to class in the evening. I might have a test but I honestly have no clue. :/

xx Annie

Those abnormal cells they found at the doctor ended up being nothing. Yay! :)

Tomorrow is my last day of spring break. What have I done all week? Nothing! Seriously, it sucks. Mitch has been really busy with work and he's been sick. My best friend Lindsey never talks to me anymore because she's always with her boyfriend and doesn't want her hanging out with me. Yep... long story. Basically, I've just been sitting on my ass at home. I didn't even hardly work. They gave me 2 days and the entire weekend off for no reason. Wierd? Yes. I need money so bad and they never schedule me. :(

I'm sorry for probably killing your brain cells. I was just super bored and felt like posting something.

xx Annie

Ok... I'm totally freaking.

I had my doctors/gyno visit this morning. I actually didn't get a pap test because they said they weren't doing that for me until I'm 21. I just had a full exam. It wasn't really bad at all. It was slightly uncomfortable but I don't know why everyone freaks out about them. Well to start off with, I have a yeast infection. I've never had one of those before so that's fun. I hate doing that treatment though, lol. The scary part is, they found abnormal cells on my cervix that the lady was pretty freaked out about. She sent the samples to Iowa City today and I'll find out what's wrong on either Monday or Tuesday. I have 2 different meds to take for that. Also, I'm now on birth control which I'm getting for free which is amazing. All my doctors visits are free too because of my parents income and the fact that I work and go to school. It's going to make me gain 5-10 lbs. though which sucks and my boyfriend says it will make me breakout and I already have enough of a problem with that. Is there anyone that's taken Necon and had a problem? The sad thing is, HBC is only 80% effective for me instead of 99% with my meds that I take for my siezures. Is there any point in taking it? I might quit if I don't like it after the 2 month trial thing I'm on, lol.

Good news though! I have a job interview at Wet Seal on Friday. :)

Also, how does everyone feel about Deathly Hallows being made into 2 films and David Yates directing? I'm not sure. David Yates is my favorite so far and now 45873647562784 things hopefully won't be cut but 6 months between the movies is too long. :P

I just feel disgusting right now.

I've slept about 4 hours in 2 days so I'm absolutely dead and I have pms worse than I think I've ever had it in my life. I've spent the night at Mitch's house the last 3 nights and had a hard time sleeping the last 2. He listens to music too loud and moves around a lot. I'm a really light sleeper so that doesn't mesh too well with me but I'm too nice to say "hey! turn that shit down, home skillet, and back off my kool-aid!" I just hate staying at my house alone though and, as corny as this sounds, it's nice waking up next to him. :)

I have to get my first pap smear on Wed. morning and I'm nervous about it. I'm 19 and sexually active so it's pretty bad that I haven't gotten one and now I'm having some problems so I'm kind of freaked out. Has anyone ever gotten one? Is it as bad as it sounds? My best friend keeps talking about how horrible they are but she's a huge baby. Hopefully that wasn't tmi now that I think about it? Lol.

Btw, today's our 3 month! It seems like so much longer though since I've been talking to the guy since August. Too bad he's leaving me to up to Iowa City and party and I have family in town so I'm stuck here. He was suppose to stay at my house tonight but apparently forgot so no dice, lol. I asked him about it last night and he was like "ohshit!! Oops?" It's cool though because I kind of want some time to myself I guess and I haven't had that in a while.

I know this was an enjoyable read. :)

xx Annie

The Soundtrack of My Life:
YOUR EARLY YEARS

Your Mother Finds Out She Is Pregnant With You:
"Happy Working Song" - Amy Adams (Enchanted Soundtrack)

You're Just Chillin' In The Womb:
"Can't Take It In" - Imogen Heap

Your Birth:
"Wannabe" - Spice Girls

Your First Words:
"Headlock" - Imogen Heap

Your First Steps:
"Voldemort Is Awesome" - Draco and the Malfoys

You're Finally Potty Trained:
"Hallelujah" - Paramore

You Get Your First Pet:
"Shadow of a Day" - Linkin Park

Your First Day Of School:
"Broken Man" - Boys Like Girls

Meeting Your First Best Friend:
"Work" - Jimmy Eat World

Meeting Your First Crush:
"All The Small Things" - blink-182

NOT A LITTLE KID ANYMORE

First Day At Middle School:
"You Don't Know What Love Is (You Do As You're Told)" - The White Stripes

Your First Pet Dies:
"The Walk" - Imogen Heap

Your First Day At Secondary School:
"Heaven On Earth" - Britney Spears

You Turn 13:
"Misery Business" - Paramore

Your First Boyfriend/Girlfriend:
"Stupify" - Disturbed

Your First Kiss:
"Our Song" - Taylor Swift

You Think You're In Love:
"Don't Stop the Music" - Rihanna

Your First Time:
"Johanna" - Sweeney Todd Soundtrack

Your First Break - Up:
"When You Were Young" - The Killers

You Think You Will Never Move On:
"LDN" - Lily Allen

You Get A Crush On A Hottie:
"Hash Pipe" - Weezer

The Hottie Asks You Out:
"Teardrops On My Guitar" - Taylor Swift

You Go On Your First Date With The Hottie:
"The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars

You And The Hottie Fall In Love:
Swing, Swing" - The All-American Rejects

Your Senior Prom:
"Picture To Burn" - Taylor Swift

You Graduate:
"The Fear You Won't Fall" - Josh Radin

YOU'RE ALL GROWN UP NOW

Your First Day At Your New Job:
"Icky Thump" - The White Stripes

The Hottie Proposes Marriage:
"Paralyzer" - Finger Eleven

You Go Out Clubbing For The First Time:
"Smile" - Lily Allen

Your Drinking Song:
The Kids Aren't Alright" - The Offspring

Your Getting High Song:
"Make You Smile" - +44

Your Engagement Party:
"That's How You Know" - Amy Adams (Enchanted Sountrack)

Your Wedding Day:
"Land of Confusion" - Disturbed

Your Wedding Night:
"Prayer for the Refugee" - Rise Against

Your Honeymoon:
"Freakshow" - Britney Spears

You Catch The Hottie Cheating:
"She Hates Me" - Puddle of Mud

You And The Hottie Divorce:
"Hold On" - Plain White T's

You Try To Kill Yourself:
"So Small" - Carrie Underwood

You Get Over It:
"Face Down" - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Life Is Okay Again:
"Stricken" - Disturbed

You Get Kidnapped By A Beast:
"Clumsy" - Fergie

You Fall In Love With A Criminal:
"Down with the Sickness" - Disturbed

You Eat A Poison Apple:
"Teenagers" - My Chemical Romance

You Go Ballroom Dancing:
"You and Me" - Plain White T's

You Lose Your Glass Slipper:
"Blurry" - Puddle of Mud

You Fly To Neverland:
"Adam's Song" - blink-182

You Meet Michael Jackson In Neverland:
"Le Disko" - Shiny Toy Guns

You Turn Into A Merman/Mermaid:
"Anna Molly" - Incubus

You Discover You Have Magical Powers:
"Promise" - Matchbook Romance

You Go Sailing On A Pirate Ship With Captain Jack Sparrow:
"Swing Life Away" - Rise Against

You Get Abducted By Aliens:
"Your Guardian Angel" - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

You Defeat Your Life-Long Rival:
"Send The Pain Below" - Chevelle

EMOTIONS

You're Happy:
"Dig" - Incubus

You're Sad:
"My Names Is Jonas" - Weezer

You're Angry:
"Love Song" - Sara Bareilles

You're Excited:
"Famous Last Words" - My Chemical Romance

You're Hungry:
"Maneater" - Nelly Furtado

You're Thirsty:
"When It Rains" - Paramore

You're Horny:
"Heels Over Head" - Boys Like Girls

You're In Love Again:
"Hear You Me" - Jimmy Eat World

You're Calm:
"Cardigan Weather" - Meg & Dia

You're Tired:
"Hide and Seek" - Imogen Heap

You're Nervous:
"Sadie Hawkins Dance" - Relient K

You're Sick:
"Up Against the Wall" - Boys Like Girls

You're Depressed:
"Get Naked (I Got A Plan) - Britney Spears

You're Bored:
"A Wish" - Gregory and the Hawk

COMING TO AN END

You Discover You Are Dying:
"Brianstorm" - Arctic Monkeys

You Get Hit By A Bus:
"Save Ginny Weasley" - Harry and the Potters

You Are In Your Death Bed:
"Ever Ever After" - Carrie Underwood

Your Last Words:
"Sorry, Sorry" - Rooney

Your Funeral:
"Breath" - Breaking Benjamin

You Are In Heaven:
"Me, You, and My Medication" - Boys Like Girls

You're Chillin' With God:
"Counting Stars" - Sugarcult

God Kicks You Out Of Heaven:
"Memory" - Sugarcult

You Go To Hell:
"Let This Go" - Paramore

You Spend Eternity Suffering:
"Popstars" - Rooney

You Make A Deal With The Devil:
"Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn" - Hellogoodbye

You Become The Co-Owner Of Hell:
"Nothin To Lose" - Josh Gracin

Everything Turned Out Okay In The End:
"Safe To Say" - Playjerise

46 Questions on Life, the Universe and not a lot else


01: Do you take pills of any sort?
Yep. I take lamictal and possibly birth control soon.

02: You doing anything interesting tomorrow?
Ugh, no. I have school and work. :(

03: What was your elementary school called?
Harrison Elementary.

04: How many hours do you work a week?
Usually 15-25. It depends on what movie are out.

05: Have you ever seen a real giraffe?
Yep.

( MOAR )

So... I'm really bored right now and really tired.

Did everyone watch the Oscars? Of course I did! I came home with $10 too, ha ha. Every year my family has an Oscar night and we keep tally on who guesses who wins and the person with the most wins gets to take home all the money that you throw in. I win every year, lmao. Two members of my family didn't even join in because they knew I would win. =D

Mitch stayed with me last night which was really nice. I worked 6-close and got out of there at about 11:45 which is still pretty late there and he still willingly came over to me house. It was so sweet. Too bad I couldn't sleep at all. For some reason I never sleep too well when I sleep with him. Why? I dunno, lol. On Wednesday, I stayed the night at his house but he works at 7 every morning so I was going to have to leave his house when he did. He went outside that morning to warm my car up for me which of course made me *squee* with delight. Maybe I should get a life? Ha ha, more guys should be like that. My sister says that she is getting extremely annoyed with me and the fact that I never shut up about him. I never realized it but I really don't. I can't help it! He's just that awesome. Now I'm sitting in bed all alone and it's really sad. :(

I had a 2-3 page paper due tonight for my online class by midnight and I waited until 2 hours before it was due to start it? Lol, it was a piece of shit and I finished it 10 minutes before the due date. Seriously... I think it was the worst thing I've ever written but I just didn't want to do it.

Tomorrow we're suppose to have more snow and freezing rain. Eww. Today it reached 40 degrees and was sunny. For the last week, it hasn't gotten above 10 degrees. Why does it have to go back to crappy weather? Seriously. At least it won't be semi nice out and I'll be stuck inside doing homework all day. I have to finish my homework and studying for my math test tomorrow night and then come home and study for my art test Tuesday morning. Why does school have to suck so bad? I hate the stress! :(

xx Annie, w

So today is day #2 of being by myself for 3 weeks. My grandparents are at their condo in Florida. It's really really wierd, lol. I've never actually been by myself like this so it's kind of cool to have this freedom but at the same time I'm kind of lonely. Just for the record, my grandparents are quite wealthy and I'm living with them. I have this huge house to myself and sometimes it's kind of uncomfortable and I'm not sure why. I'm trying to get people to stay with me from time to time because I hate not having someone to talk to. I like to talk, lol. I'm hoping Mitch will stay with my on weekends and my best friend can stay with me sometimes. Hell, even my sister said she can stay which she might do tonight.

Tomorrow I'm getting my haircut for the first time since November, lol. It looks like shit so I'm really excited. I dunno what to do with it so I'm just going to tell her to have fun. I want side bangs and lots of layers. She's done my hair for a few years so she knows what I like, lol.

School sucks. I have like 3 papers due within the next 2 weeks. I just dropped my geography class today since I was still having trouble understanding the guy. :P

I think that's all I wanted to say so buh bye! :)

xx Annie

Hello everyone! I'm home from Florida.

It seems I never left and it sucks to be back to reality. I also didn't know I was going until the night before. Mitch's grandpa is really sick and is in the ICU in a hospital in Sea Grove so he wanted to drive up there. He was going to go the whole 17 hours by himself and I was slightly worried about him but I kept my mouth shut. Then he asked me to go with him! I ended up calling work and missing 4 days of work and 2 days of school including a test, lol. :/

It really wasn't suppose to be a pleasure trip but we still had some fun. It was just the 2 of us driving up there so that was really cool. Friday we drove through Illinois, Kentucky, Tennessee, and Alabama. We stopped in Birmingham because once you get into Alabama, you have to take back highways and he didn't want to do that at night so we got a hotel room. They had no hot water and it was horrid, lol. Then Saturday we drove the rest of the way there and went straight to the hospital where I met his grandma, aunt, and uncle. His grandma is so cool! She drives like 85 mph everywhere and has a police scanner, lmfao. It was amazing. After that we dropped our bags off at his grandma's house and went grocery shopping where I bought us a crap load of junk food. We dropped our food off at his grandma's house and went to the beach! That was good times. Then we went back to the hospital for a while and his grandma told us to go home and she bought everyone pizza. I was suppose to sleep in his grandma's studio (she paints) on a little fold out bed and she set up Mitch on the couch. He made sure he "accidentally" fell asleep watch TV with me, ha ha. The entire time we both slept on a twin bed that pulls out from the couch in there. My back still hurts. :(

Sunday we got up early and went back to the hospital and then he said it was going to be a fun day. We drove around and looked at cool houses and stuff. We drove all the way to Panama City Beach and back. We also did a little shopping here and there. Then I made him stop at Joe's Crap Shack for lunch because I eat there in Naples and it's amazing. We got kind of sick of driving around and stuff so we went back home and got ready for the beach again and we walked about 5 miles, lol. The water was freaking cold so we couldn't do more than put our feet in it and he whined just about that because he's a baby, lol. We stayed down there long enough to see the sunset and it was gorgeous as usual and not to mention romantic, he he. His grandma bought us dinner again and everyone sat around and watched the Super Bowl. The me, Mitch, grandma, and his aunt played cards, ha ha. It was pretty cool. His grandma won both games. Then we decided to go to the beach at like 11:30 pm to see the stars. I hadn't ever been to the beach at night and it was so cool!

Monday we went to the hospital in the morning again and his grandma took everyone to IHOP for lunch. Then me and Mitch went home and made sure our stuff was packed and he decided to go running but I didn't want to go so of course I was a loser, ha ha. When he got back we went back to the hospital to say bye to everyone and then we were on our way home. We drove through Alabama and part of Tennessee where we stopped to stay at a Holiday Inn right outside of Nashville. We were trying to beat all the nasty rainstorms that were suppose to happen in Alabama. Tuesday we drove the rest of the way home and only ran into a lot of rain.

Now I come back to it snowing outside like a bitch and school is canceled. I've heard that we're suppose to get 2-4 inches, 3-6 inches, or even 12 inches from 57826397456 different news stations so I don't know what's going to happen. :/

xx Annie